I Sit

I sit frustrated.  Cannot know certain things about people.  Cannot know why people act.  Behave.  Choose.  Work.  Cannot know why people enjoy going nowhere.  Why people are blind.  Dim.  Faint.  Same stuff disguised begets same response.  Anger.  Sadness.  Jealousy. 

Cannot imagine why people dream and sit still.  Don't know why dreams satisfy and gorge.  Halfway.  Incomplete.  Quitter.  Easy is not better.  Cannot imagine why people desire to consume.  Consumption begets wasteland.  Stagnant.  Flies.  Disease.  Cannot imagine why people let themselves evaporate.  Hopeless.  Despair.  Lifeless.  

Why people allow prejudice and bias define them?  Who defines and directs the value?  Agenda.  Plan.  Worthy because... they said what?  Precious?  Pure?  What they say... always disappoints.  They deceive.  Mislead.  Tease.  Who does that?  Torture?  Cripple?  Why stand in the presence of turncoats?  Surrounded by snakes in the grass.  Same stuff, same attitude, same influence.

Cannot fathom why people enjoy drowning.  Why they choose to suffocate.  Smother.  Choke.  Why do people insist on being sluggish?  Slow?  Sloth?  Idle even.  Lazy is easy.  Why do people choose to wither?  Fade?  Rust?  Corrode?  Why do people endure instead of live?  Suffer instead of prosper?  Tolerate instead of thrive?  Settle instead of hold fast?  Why do people carry the same stuff, with the same consequence, and yet approve the same harvest yielding the same tasteless, colorless fruit each season.  They wonder?  Change?  Me?  How?  Why?  Stifled.  Same stuff, same outcome, same mental gutter. 

Cannot grasp why people don’t shine.  Cannot grasp why people don’t live.  Succeed?  Fly?  Fly higher?  Fail?  Risk?  Love?  Create?  Cannot grasp timid?  Nervous?  Scared?  Of whom and what?  Stop?  Cease?  Abort?  Cancel?  It is insanity.  Genius not yet recognized?  Inventive, yes.  Brilliant, maybe.  Neutralized, probably.  Dead, not yet.  

Sit frustrated.  Exhausted.  Fatigued.  Weary.  Cannot help.  Assist.  Enhance.  Improve.  Hold up, wait a minute.  Wait for what?  Wait for change?  Wait for life?  Wait for value?  Wait for happiness?  Wait for nourishment?  Wait to start?  When?  Start tomorrow?  Tomorrow is popular.  Wait for something different, something new, something fresh to camp in their parcel.  In their shade.  Lot.  Same stuff, same result, same obstacle, same pain.  

Where are You?  Come Jesus.  Guide.  Lead.  Advise.  I have nothing left.  Empty.  Vacant.  Hollow.  Please fill my void.  Cold.  Barren.  Hard.  Where are You?  Come Jesus.  Hear my cry.  Answer.  Where are You?  Come Jesus.  Strengthen.  Embolden.  Inspire.   Without You I will harm.  I will ruin.  Pollute.  Come Jesus.  I cannot travel alone.  Abandoned.  Detached.  Unmarried.  I need You.  Support.  Together.  Bolster.  Gird.  Sustain.  Come Jesus.  Hear my cry. 

Rebuke Satan.  Arrest.  Confine.  Remove.  Jesus, come.  Fast.  Swift.  Certain.  Now.  I’m ready to struggle.  Fight.  Train.  Riot.  Help me lose... Life.  Ambition.  Pride.  Lose my love for pleasure.  I need You.  Shepherd me.  Cool streams.  Green pastures.  I am ready.  Ripe.  Plump.  Seasoned.   Help me live for You.  Love.  Sacrifice.  Forgive.  I get it, I want to follow You... weakened and diluted I am now humble.         

Have a good and godly day.